Post-Pageant Blues

Now, I knowww I said I was going to post bi-weekly but after watching the Miss World final this weekend and seeing our current Miss Universe Great Britain SLAYYY in Vegas right now, I am having serious Post-Pageant Blues.

As I mentioned in my first post, this year I competed as a finalist in both Miss Wales and Miss Universe Great Britain. Both were incredible experiences that I enjoyed every single bit of (even the terrifying bikini round that was part of MUGB)! But now, four months later I’m finding myself looking back at old photos and wishing I could relive it all.

My first time on a pageant stage! The Miss Wales 2017 final

MUGB 2017… feeling like a real life Barbie doll!

Bikini round – MUGB 2017

I was warned about this… I remember one of my close pageant friends telling me about ‘pageant fever’ and ‘post-pageant blues’ back when I first became a Miss Wales finalist. I kinda just laughed it off and thought ‘nooo I just want to give it a go once for the experience and a little fun!’… but I can confirm, she was right!

To be perfectly honest, I didn’t allow myself any time after Miss Wales to come off of the high… within a month I was a finalist for Miss Universe Great Britain and so it began all over again! And then two days after the Miss Universe Great Britain final, I was jetting off to NY to spend the Summer with my fiancé after our engagement a couple of weeks earlier! So again, I didn’t really experience it… But now it is hitting me hard!

One of the things I enjoyed most about being a pageant contestant was the unexpected boost of confidence it gave me and the new level of self awareness I found. I was always trying to be the best me I could be. I would really take time to consider the way I dressed, the effort I put into my hair and make up, the way I presented myself in public and on social media… just everything in general! Once the pageant is over you no longer have a need to care too much about all of that. Make no mistake, it felt AMAZING not to do my makeup and to throw my hair up in a messy bun for a week (or two🙊) after the pageants, but I’m definitely missing getting all glammed up for exciting events and appearances.

The main thing I miss about being part of a pageant though, is being surrounded by so many women from all over the country, with different backgrounds, who are all there competing for the same title, yet are still super friendly and supportive!

For Miss Universe GB, the 35 finalists spent three days and three nights together at the Mercure Holland House in Cardiff. We were together 24 hours a day, we rehearsed, ate, slept, talked and laughed as the journey whizzed by us. I was lucky enough to have an amazing roommate who had taken part in MUGB before, and who also enjoyed a glass of wine and a chat before bed as much as I did 😆

Bedtime selfie with my roomie after Day One of MUGB 2017 I’m sure some people reading this will have their own opinions about how pageant girls act towards one another. You may think there is a lot of resentment and cattiness behind the scenes, as everyone is competing for the same title. But from my experience (and I’m sure most past and future contestants and Queens would agree), you bond WAY more than you fight and there is a very strong sisterhood between competitors. Most contestants will say that they are more like one big family than anything else!

As I will soon be heading off to New York to start a new life, I’m having to accept that my pageant days are over. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not actually down and out about it…I’m loving life right now! As one chapter is ending, a million other things are just beginning for me. So, I tell myself not to be sad because it’s over but to be happy that it happened and that I have the memories forever!

I know there are a few girls that may be reading this that will be competing in their first pageants in 2018. For those girls… just be prepared to invest more time into this than you imagined because, trust me, it’s ADDICTIVE! (But 100% worth it😜)

J x

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